Today, my girlfriend of 2 years broke up with me because she said I was more of a woman than she was. I proceeded to yell out, “I HATE YOU!” and started to cry. She then took a tampon out of her purse, handed it to me, laughed, and walked away. FML
Actually, this isn’t a vent. It’s just me explaining what’s happened so far. SO! Here’s a list of the things you’ve done so far:
1. You took away BOTH mine and Ellisa’s phone.
2. You told me I can’t go to Willy’s 4th of July party.
3. You told me both Ellisa and I can’t hang/go out until my aunt from Korea comes which will be like at the end of July or so.
4. Willy can’t come over w/o your supervision or else you’ll make us break up.
But you know what? I’m not mad. Not one bit. Nope. I’m so used to this now. I can handle it C: I can handle your bipolar and random consequences now. So if you’re trying to distance me and Willy… It’s not going to work C:
I admit. I get mad when other girls starts texting you, I get worried when there's girls around you when im not there, I get irritated when you keep on cruising with them, going along with their plan and damn I do get jealous when I see pictures of you and other girls the next day. I dont know, I just dont want anyone to get closer to you cause lets face it, your amazing, and I just dont want anyone else to see that.
Ever since summer started, I feel like I have no freedom whatsoever. Sure you let me go do a couple of things, so why do I still feel so RESTRICTED? Maybe it’s because whenever I want to hang out, it always involves Willy. I don’t see what’s so bad about hanging out with him. It’s just Willy. You even said you liked him and that you trusted him, but are you really telling me the truth? I understand that you’re trying to “protect” me and that you’re worrying about me, but you need to let me go. I am 17 years old and I feel like I have less privileges than when I was in eighth grade. You treat me like a 10 year old. I can take care of myself. It doesn’t even make any sense that you told me I can only hang out with Willy by not even planning to hang out. That I can only see him coincidentally/accidentally. This isn’t fair. I don’t even see the point of summer anymore. The point of summer is to be able to relax and chill after a long school year of hard work, ESPECIALLY because I had such a hard school year with AP classes, but I’m not relaxed one bit. I’d rather be going to school right now. Because at school, I get to see Willy every day. At school, at least I see him for two minutes. Even when you know that Willy helped me through SO much during the school year, your response is “Yeah..Okay…Thank him and go on with your life." Whether it was giving Ellisa and I rides whenever you couldn’t, helping me with my AP classes, giving me comfort whenever I broke down or was overwhelmed by the amount of stress I was receiving, he was always there. He even had the guts to come to our house, and sit and chat about who he is, how much he cares about me, how you can trust him, what his ideal career is like, just everything. Yet, after that talk, you decided to give us "rules.” The first one, we can’t talk on the phone after 10pm. The second one, I can’t plan to hang out with him and can only see him accidentally/coincidentally. The third one, I can’t ride in his car. I feel like a bad kid. I feel like you view me as a very bad child that needs discipline all the time and can’t have any freedom. I tell you everything, and I mean EVERYTHING. I’m not like those kids that lie to their parents to hang out with whoever they want. No. I tell my mom who I hang out with, even if it increases the likeliness of my mom saying no. I always tell you when Willy is going to be there, but you’ve rejected all of those times. Even when I was hanging out with friends as well. I don’t understand how close yet apart we are from each other. I still remember that moment when I asked you if I could go to Oaks Park with Willy and Jenny, but you said no. Then I asked, “Oh…why?” and you FLIPPED out! You were like, ” AISHEE! THERE YOU GO AGAIN, STARTING EVERYTHING! *rambles off into korean* ” Then I said, “Sorry.” And I went upstairs. That was a week ago and I still haven’t been able to officially hang out with anyone ever since. Ever since then, I’ve been lazily staying home, or going to tennis practice because I had to. I don’t even feel like going out anymore. I just want to waste my summer. When I look at other kids, they have 10x more freedom than me. I don’t understand how their parents are so flexible. They go chill with friends almost everyday, and chill late at night. Yes, 9pm is late for my mom. That is my official curfew. I envy them SO much. I envy how free they are, how they have parents that can be reasoned with, how much fun they are having, just… everything. I am going to break down. I don’t want to give up on trying. Because I still have hope. But it’s hard to not give up when you keep trying to figure out another way to make me lose that hope of you accepting Willy. I really want to give up. But I’m going to keep trying.